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Symmetrical Paintings Project
The Forest of Abandoned Cats
( The 3rd Time Though The Simulation )
The Desert Wasteland
The Desert Wasteland
2011 - 2013
2011 - 2013
Winter 2011
for example, if it arises from ignorance, a misunderstanding of science or causality, a positive belief in fate or magic, or fear of that which is unknown. It is commonly applied to beliefs and practices surrounding luck, prophecy, and spiritual beings, particularly the belief that future events can be foretold by specific (apparently) unrelated prior events.
for example, if it arises from ignorance, a misunderstanding of science or causality, a positive belief in fate or magic, or fear of that which is unknown. It is commonly applied to beliefs and practices surrounding luck, prophecy, and spiritual beings, particularly the belief that future events can be foretold by specific (apparently) unrelated prior events.
The Italian at the Bordello at Goldfield Ghost Town
Superstition Mountains Winter 2011
Goldfield Ghost Town
Superstition Mountains Winter 2011
The Finality of Saying Goodbye to Each Other at Goldfield Ghost Town in Front of the Superstition Mountains.. Over 10 Years Since Their First Late Night Encounter In Rome, Italy.
Superstition Mountains January 2011
"Don't be naive Loid. Love isn't real. Love doesn't exist. Love is just the nice way to describe how people use each other to get what they want. When you're not getting what you want you move on to someone else."
"Don't be naive Loid. Love isn't real. Love doesn't exist. Love is just the nice way to describe how people use each other to get what they want. When you're not getting what you want you move on to someone else."
-That was said to Loid 5 years earlier by the while walking on the beach in Italy and it took a total of 10 years to prove the point.
-That was said to Loid 5 years earlier by the while walking on the beach in Italy and it took a total of 10 years to prove the point.
Alien Landscape Painted House In The Desert Wasteland
Alien Landscape Painted House In The Desert Wasteland
Chair and Piano In The Alien Landscape Painted House In The Desert
Portrait of Agent Cesar in his Alien Landscape Painted House. This Agent got Loid into digital art when they met in the 90s. Agent Cesar left The Desert Wasteland and moved to Portland a year after Loid had arrived leaving him in the hands of The Anjuna Agents.
"When Men Just Break Up A Long Term Relationship They Always End Up With Someone Much Too Young For Them."
- L.A. Story"When Men Just Break Up A Long Term Relationship They Always End Up With Someone Much Too Young For Them."
Loid was 37 years old when he was abandoned at his mother's house and exiled to The Desert Wasteland.
Loid was 37 years old when he was abandoned at his mother's house and exiled to The Desert Wasteland.
It was 2011 and the dawn of the age of smartphone dating apps by location. So many options for distractions to fill the void of loosing his life, everyone and everything in Italy.
It was 2011 and the dawn of the age of smartphone dating apps by location. So many options for distractions to fill the void of loosing his life, everyone and everything in Italy.
Within 6 months of his desert exile Loid was trying very hard to forget about Italy when the next Agent of the Conspiracy made contact.
Within 6 months of his desert exile Loid was trying very hard to forget about Italy when the next Agent of the Conspiracy made contact.
The Anjuna Agent Boyfriend
The Anjuna Agent Boyfriend
was a D.J. and a Waiter with a million friends and everyone loved him. He D.J.ed at raves and was always surrounded by crazy club kids, artists and Agents in training. He hated being on stage but somehow he was always the center of attention. With him every weekend in The Desert Wasteland there was something to do. Always some party... or dinner... or rehearsal... or event... or something... always something as Loid followed his boyfriend and tried to figure out how to understand everyone and be understood. The beginning was difficult because of the age and culture differences. The Anjuna Agents in The Desert Wasteland never even made an effort to pretened to be Loid's friends and that made Loid feel completly crazy! By December 2012 it all put Loid in his first mental hospital for 2 weeks.
was a D.J. and a Waiter with a million friends and everyone loved him. He D.J.ed at raves and was always surrounded by crazy club kids, artists and Agents in training. He hated being on stage but somehow he was always the center of attention. With him every weekend in The Desert Wasteland there was something to do. Always some party... or dinner... or rehearsal... or event... or something... always something as Loid followed his boyfriend and tried to figure out how to understand everyone and be understood. The beginning was difficult because of the age and culture differences. The Anjuna Agents in The Desert Wasteland never even made an effort to pretened to be Loid's friends and that made Loid feel completly crazy! By December 2012 it all put Loid in his first mental hospital for 2 weeks.
Within 6 months The Anjuna Agent had funneled Paranoid Loid through a series of trials and tests that landed them both in the unavoidable trap of The Forest of Abandoned Cats.
Within 6 months The Anjuna Agent had funneled Paranoid Loid through a series of trials and tests that landed them both in the unavoidable trap of The Forest of Abandoned Cats.
RAZZA & MALISZ
DJ set at a nightclub Fall 2011
RAZZA & MALISZ publicity photo
Summer 2011
RAZZA & MALISZ publicity photo
Summer 2011
RAZZA & MALISZ
DJ set at a Rave Fall 2011
Loid and The Anjuna Agent
Summer 2012
Becoming one with an iPad distortion filter
Summer 2012
Loid and his first American boyfriend in the front row seeing Above & Beyond at Global Dance Festival inside Red Rocks Amphitheater,
Colorado USA 2012(photo by Paavo)
Crop from previous photo
Loid and the first generation iPad
Fall 2012
Fractal Loid
Fall 2012
Loid and the Anjuna Agent
Summer 2011
iPad Filter
Summer 2012
The Forest of Abandoned Cats living room with Paintings and Loids
Fall 2012
The Anjuna Agent with his Anjuna Beats Tattoo
Monument Valley Summer 2012
The World Ended In December 2012
The World Ended In December 2012
when more than a week passed where Loid was unable to sleep. All year he was continuously haunted by visions of a vast global conspiracy involving the 11 year cycle of the Sun and time travel that the rich and powerful have always used to their advantage.
when more than a week passed where Loid was unable to sleep. All year he was continuously haunted by visions of a vast global conspiracy involving the 11 year cycle of the Sun and time travel that the rich and powerful have always used to their advantage.
After weeks in a psychotic state and after so many days and nights awake he was experiencing frighting hallucinations that eventually led to complete psychosis. All day people, grotesque and distorted, continually entered his apartment. They would crawl in through the bathroom and kitchen windows and though the balcony and front doors. Just as they were about to attack he would close his eyes and the whole scene would reset. He was alone sitting cross legged in the hallway at the center of the apartment between two door mirrors creating the effect of apparent infinite regress to the left and right of him. Then after a few moments everything would begin again and the apparent invasion of these apparitions would repeat over and over again all day until evening.
After weeks in a psychotic state and after so many days and nights awake he was experiencing frighting hallucinations that eventually led to complete psychosis. All day people, grotesque and distorted, continually entered his apartment. They would crawl in through the bathroom and kitchen windows and though the balcony and front doors. Just as they were about to attack he would close his eyes and the whole scene would reset. He was alone sitting cross legged in the hallway at the center of the apartment between two door mirrors creating the effect of apparent infinite regress to the left and right of him. Then after a few moments everything would begin again and the apparent invasion of these apparitions would repeat over and over again all day until evening.
Loid thought what was happening couldn't be real so it must be a dream. In front of Loid's boyfriend, who had just arrived home from work, he sliced open his own hand with a sharp piece of a broken wine glass. Blood dripped from his palm's open wounds onto the kitchen floor. He was hoping the self inflicted pain would wake himself up. Instead, reality continued to disintegrate around him until he ran outside naked and screaming. In the dark empty courtyard of his apartment complex Loid's paranoid fears and delusions became visible forms closing in on him. Within moments, 6 real police officers jumped Loid and pined him to the ground to restrain him. The intense visions of this waking nightmare continued as they took him away by ambulance to an emergency room for hours before being transferred to a mental hospital where he stayed for more than a week.
Loid thought what was happening couldn't be real so it must be a dream. In front of Loid's boyfriend, who had just arrived home from work, he sliced open his own hand with a sharp piece of a broken wine glass. Blood dripped from his palm's open wounds onto the kitchen floor. He was hoping the self inflicted pain would wake himself up. Instead, reality continued to disintegrate around him until he ran outside naked and screaming. In the dark empty courtyard of his apartment complex Loid's paranoid fears and delusions became visible forms closing in on him. Within moments, 6 real police officers jumped Loid and pined him to the ground to restrain him. The intense visions of this waking nightmare continued as they took him away by ambulance to an emergency room for hours before being transferred to a mental hospital where he stayed for more than a week.
Loid tried for months to ignore confronting the implications of that event.
Loid tried for months to ignore confronting the implications of that event.
10 months later it happened again.
10 months later it happened again.
Loid finally sought out professional help and was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. Because of that and everything else... Loid lost his first American boyfriend. And he finally understood why he had lost his Italian boyfriend and all of his friends.
Loid finally sought out professional help and was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. Because of that and everything else... Loid lost his first American boyfriend. And he finally understood why he had lost his Italian boyfriend and all of his friends.
It could contain conscious minds which may or may not be fully aware that they are living inside a simulation
It could contain conscious minds which may or may not be fully aware that they are living inside a simulation
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